Thursday, January 21, 2010
While being a mother is the most important thing to me right now, we all have identities outside of simply "mom." And as Corbin gets older, I have to force myself to grow those as well. While I am still mostly the center of his life, he is gradually developing his own life. Sleepovers, sports, school...I am not all there is to him anymore. It sucks, but that's the way it is supposed to be. It's the bittersweet part of parenting - you are raising them to be confident adults so that they are able to function on their own and leave the nest.
Through the years, I haven't dated much and going out is fun about 3 times a year. So I am trying to identify the areas where I can do something for me. I mean, I've been a mother nearly my entire adult life, so there's a lot I need to learn. Perhaps learning a new instrument? Writing for fun instead of only professionally? Ummm...maybe finding a relationship that works?
So anyway, ultimately, I decided it would be a pain to change my blog because I am having an internal discussion about my identity.
More to come...
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Plus, I just feel alive again! I realized how much my identity is tied to my work....which isn't a GREAT thing, but it is a reality of life as a single mom.
Anyway, I just want to encourage everyone to support each other in these tough times. I am lucky to have a new job, but know many others that are not as lucky right now. Say prayers, keep ears open for job opportunities for others, etc.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Just a few thoughts:
- I miss rocking my baby to sleep every night.
- I miss mornings spent watching Sesame Street or Elmo's World.
I miss baby food and bottles.
- I miss picking him up from daycare and having him run to me like I was the best thing on Earth. Before he was too cool.
- I miss listening to The Wiggles in the car...you know, the days before Z107 and Y98 were requested.
- I miss leisurely weekends spent playing at the park, before there were baseball and soccer practices.
I miss those relaxed days of toddlerhood. I don't they don't seem relaxed at the time, but life changes so quickly with children. I am a mere 5 years away from teenage years, and judging from the last few years, these next few will fly by. Hug those babies and kiss those cheeks. :)
Monday, March 9, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
M: Well, yes. Some people choose to be cremated rather than buried.
C: When I grow up, I would like to have your ashes. I would keep them somewhere very special.
M: ...........Er, thanks?
I guess it is sort of sweet.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
She is the daughter of a friend of a friend. She was born prematurely and then her mommy had to go to heaven. A truly sad, sad story, but I guess God always leaves a silver lining.