Thursday, January 21, 2010

Back Online

So...I think I am ready to start blogging again. I've struggled a little but with what I want this blog to be. I even thought about starting a different blog with another name because I feel like limiting this to being a mom blog isn't an accurate portrayal of my life. I have a great career and...ok, so basically my life is mom and career. No wonder my 80 year old neighbor felt the need to lecture me on how it is important for me to have a social life too. :)

While being a mother is the most important thing to me right now, we all have identities outside of simply "mom." And as Corbin gets older, I have to force myself to grow those as well. While I am still mostly the center of his life, he is gradually developing his own life. Sleepovers, sports, school...I am not all there is to him anymore. It sucks, but that's the way it is supposed to be. It's the bittersweet part of parenting - you are raising them to be confident adults so that they are able to function on their own and leave the nest.

Through the years, I haven't dated much and going out is fun about 3 times a year. So I am trying to identify the areas where I can do something for me. I mean, I've been a mother nearly my entire adult life, so there's a lot I need to learn. Perhaps learning a new instrument? Writing for fun instead of only professionally? Ummm...maybe finding a relationship that works?

So anyway, ultimately, I decided it would be a pain to change my blog because I am having an internal discussion about my identity.

More to come...